don’t let the door hit you on your way out there 2014…

nothing like 4hours of continuous fireworks in the hood to say good bye, kiss my ass, don’t let the door hit you on your way out, au revoir, arrivederci 2014…i’ve been sitting back, computer on lap, the holiday on television, puppy snoring and phone beeping all night wondering what and how to say good bye to this year, the year i’ve termed ‘fucked’…my decision was to write, lay my head on my pillow, put a smile on my face, get puppy snuggled in and be dreaming sweet dreams by midnight…this year doesn’t deserve a big hooray, a big send off nor a celebration…it’s another day, sun goes down, body rests and sun comes up…the thing i’m looking forward to is a new sun tomorrow…

i’ve never been much of a new year’s eve person…with that said I’ve always had plans and I’ve always gotten out of the house but through the years I’ve have had some really crappy celebrations (crawling up george street in a blizzard at 3:30am, high heel shoes on, street meat in hand trying to get a cab) and I’ve had some really great celebrations (sitting at raymonds with my sister putting two beignets in her cheeks and acting like a squirrel as i cried and spit drink from my nostrils)…this year there’s no blizzard or beignets, this year i chose to stay in with the pup in my life, watch Christmas movies and reflect on all that I have to be thankful for…

now the first thing people ask you on this day is, “OMG what are you doing to ring the new year in tonight”…to which I answered “absolutely nothing”…to which I get the pity head tilt and a “oh, really, no plans”…I giggled all day long knowing that my couch awaited me…the key word in the statement is that I ‘chose’ to stay in…this year I feel like I need to stare 2014 in the face alone and watch the hand of the clock tick from 11:59pm to 12:00am…

I’ve joked that 2014 has sucked ass, I’ve posted pictures of my dog’s ass to reiterate how much it has actually sucked…but honestly when I look back, despite the negative experiences, I’ve learned a lot about myself and I’ve learned a lot about the people that are in my world…both eye opening…this year I’ve looked evil in the face, I’ve shed a tear for the loss of a loved one, I’ve held the hand of a tiny new person, I’ve built legos with my nephews, I’ve spent quality time with my parents, I’ve laughed spontaneously, I’ve travelled to many places and I’ve sung to the top of my lungs while dancing in my car…2014 brought me new friends, new conversations and new experiences…2014 also brought me to a place that I’ve never wanted to be…but because of the journey of this past year, I am a better, stronger, wiser person…

as I look back on this year i realize I’m not the only one tonight wishing it away…with that said I want to take something from this year and keep it close to my heart to teach me that I am still me, no matter how much I’ve meandered on my road map, no matter how much I’ve gone outside my comfort zone, no matter how many times I’ve felt knocked down, I will always be danielle, well nanette danielle…if you’ve struggled with anything this year, no matter if it seemed to be a small bump in the road or a devastating experience, know that there are others out there heading down this path with you…we all experience differently, we all heal differently, we all deal with struggles differently and we all lose a bit of ourselves in the journey…but it’s a journey we must allow ourselves to travel…

I move into this new year with hope, love and good deeds on my road map…I don’t have a gps but my navigation system is well equipped…I just need to keep my head on my shoulders and rid my thoughts of those who don’t deserve to be in them…a wise woman once told me that fortune telling is not productive…by worrying about the what if’s in our future, we are missing out on our present…living in the present is the only way to live our lives…we know our days are limited, why waste them with worry, what if’s, and apprehensiveness…

I’m here listening to fireworks picturing the smiles on many a face tonight, families wrapped up in snowsuits to battle the wind, snow and chill in the air…I’m here listening to fireworks and picturing families at home dealing with tragedy, illness and sadness…I’m here listening to fireworks and I’m picturing families dealing with terrified pets…I’m here listening to fireworks…

2014…I think of the year but really it’s a number just like my age…43…

the things I’m grateful for didn’t only happen in 2014 – it happened over my lifetime, my 43 years…lets not put all our eggs in one basket…when you sit back over the next couple of days don’t think it’s a year later, don’t think of the failed resolutions from years before, don’t think of all the plans you had…think of all the things that you accomplished and all the people that you made an impression on…and think of all the good that you can do and all the love that you can give…

if you have a chance to do anything in your life this year that will make you feel empowered, do it…if you have a chance to do anything in your life this year that will make you feel inspired, do it…be different, be unique, be yourself…trust that you are on the right path and the path doesn’t end when the calendar year does…the path ends when we end – a colleague of mine gave me the greatest compliment of my professional life today and he ended it with “keep on trucking lady”…four little words that resonate in my mind as I head into the morning…the road ahead of us, whether paved or gravel, has many potholes – keep your head up, hands on the wheel and keep trucking…

don’t let another year pass you by without living it the way you want…we’ll never know when we’ll get another chance to do it again…

happy new year…happy new beginnings…happy new you…

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